I was Reminded of the Big Picture

On Sunday I made plans to hang out with some friends of mine, Lizs' kids Matt and Becka. We went swimming. Its always fun for me. Instead of thinking about crap going on in my head, I just get away. Kids are fun to spend time with because often they just react to situations as they come. They aren't usually affraid to just say what they are thinking. and most of the time they are honest about what they do say. genuine curiousity.

I made a point to let them know that I won't be able to do some of the bigger stuff with them for a while. I told them how I may not even have a job in a couple months. We don't have work lined up past march 30th right now. but that can change of course. but i wanted to let them know. Both of the kids inquired about what I am going to do. I told them some of my options and left it at that. and we continued our day together.

When I dropped off the kids, matt walked beside me just before we got to their door. Matt mentioned that I could always deliver papers to make some extra money to get by. I thought that was pretty special, he truely wanted to help me out anyway he could. Liz has raised some pretty special kids. You are both awesome Matt and Becka.

Earlier when I was at church (i haven't been to this one for a long time, or any for that matter in a while), a guy came up to me and mentioned that he loved a post i made about a waterfall. It was the only post I made in december and it was done at a time when I was thinking about so much stuff. I was astonished that he even read it.

I went back to read it to refresh myself about what I wrote. Even now I have been going through a lot in my head. Its pretty cool how someone else reminded me about a post that was about how small we are compared to God. our problems are nothing for him, we just have to relax. Even if you don't believe in a God, its important to just relax. you never know. God could be working in the background of your life and you may not even know it. To top it off, the service had some keys in it about leaving the troubles for God to work out. I don't think that means just forget them. you still have to do footwork at times. just don't worry so much. it will work its way out. relax.

I'm going to do my best to just relax and be myself. if things are meant to be, they will happen. if i get discouraged and i am sure i will, i will just relax. take things one step at a time.